I think that this photo of Jackie sometimes sums up life at our house, CRAZY. To her there is logic in needed goggles and an umbrella and pretending to surf on the front lawn but to the rest of the world it is just crazy. But I was reminded in church today that we all live life a little on the crazy. I worry about and pray about so many silly everyday things like but sometimes I fail to take the time to stop and really talk to God the way I should. I fail to take the time to focus on the big things in life and what really matters, I wonder if I often seem as crazy and hard to understand to God as Jackie does to me. We were challenged today at church to pray big, to expect God to answer and to ask God to take us out of our comfort zone to have Radical faith. I have heard sermons about this before but today this was hard to hear.
When I was a student it was easy to ask God make my faith radical and to mean it when I prayed "Lord send me". Now however I have kids of my own and I like the stable routine of our life. I like knowing what tomorrow brings even if Monday is laundry day. The idea of asking God to ruin this comfort is hard and that makes me sad. I went for a walk tonight with Grace and prayed that God would give me strength to pray big prayers again, to stop focusing on what I want and to focus on what God wants for my life. I pray God helps me take off the swim goggles and see the world as he does, that I realize there is no reason for an umbrella when I should be rejoicing in the sun shine, and to understand that God will make his plans happen according to his own time table so there is no need to pretend to surf in the yard when the time is right the waves will be there too.
Jackie and Grace I share this post with you today partially because I want you to know that you are crazy so if I have gray hair early in life you will know why. But mostly because I want you to know that God has big plans for you, that I will pray big prayers for you.
Also today was Jacqueline's last day of preschool. I think the hardest part was saying goodbye to her best friend Tiffany.
And a Grace photo too just because she is cute. (Jackie and I took Grace shopping to get Big Girl Underware this week! We won't start potty training until I am done with school but that is the goal for the summer. Grace is so silly she really wanted the little boy Avengers Underware but she finally settled on some Elmo ones.)
Can you spell mom... Jackie can? As soon as she got home from school today she present me with this beautiful flower garden stick she made and she wrote mom on the front all by herself. (Maybe she will get the spelling skills that Adam and I lack).
